Donnerstag, September 15, 2005

Oops, too much sleep today...

2day, woke up at about 7, hear an unclear voice, it's my mom, something about hurry, we're getting late...hmm...didn't remember much, I got sleep again. woke up at about 8.30, but, still nothing to do...sleep again...^^. woke up at 9.30, check out fs, nothing in particular...think, hmm...need something to improve my profile...do this and do that *tek tek tek*, testing...no good...test test test and test...don't know somehow, maybe the fs error, resulting in nothing change at all, dispite all of my modification to the CSS scripts...what the???? hmm...got suck out...Oops, there's a sms arrive. it's from my bro leo, sum'thin bout happy bear, send it to 5 person...well, just do it, send 1st 4 tracy, 2nd 4 kelty, 3rd for chairil, 4th for aerin, 5th for Novia. ok, mission accomplished^^. after that, tracy return my sms, she's my sis which I knew from fs just about 3 month ago. we chit a chat 4 a while, I eat up my breakfast while sms. and after that, say bye2. watch tv, nothing good, got asleep again at about 13.00. woke up at 2.30, wahhh, there's a phone call (what a coincidence). there's a client who want to play at billiards, well, take a keys, go down, get the bag with billiard's books inside, go to the billiard, get the ball out, do some counting here and there with my employees, hmm, the guy is coming, settle up the table, do the time stamp, here we go... Oops, it's about 2.40 right now, just remember, my couz at medan gonna depart 2 singapore 2day, sms her 4 a while, well, just a while, there's a reply from her, saying she's on the way 2 the plane right now...okay2,I didn't sms again, coz cell phone aren't allowed at plane isn't it?

go home, watching the cofee shop, well, nothing good 2 do.

in short, at 5.30 I get upstair, my bro replacing me. At this time, tony saying that he need to find a post stamp, a RP.1000 Post stamp...at this times? the post office is already closed...think bout, modern photo, they ussualy sold seal (meterai), Oops, they didn't sell it, try to looking to the post office, oops, it's closed...go to duta buah, and, the same here.....bla bla bla, AHAAAA....I just remember, there's a small shop at jelambar, which sold a lot of thing, and I remembered, they sell a stamp too. it's a bit far although, and I brought tony with me anyway. hmm...after a little struggling at the small, but crowded streets...got there at last, and the good news is, they have it, buy one, store it in my wallet. go to eat a pempek for a while at APY (the one located not far from there). while we eating, there's a phone call, it's from mom, saying that, tony private teach has come. oh no, eat in a rush mode, euh, I share 3 kind of pempek (selam, model and kulit) with tony,we drink 1 teh botol en 1 fruit tea (brand, not tea with fruits^^) quite expensive though, it's cost us (me actually^^) 20.500 rupiah. go home. hmm, you're look a bit too old-fashioned now my pal, maybe this is the time to do some make-up to you^^. well, after a lot of afford, you're look more handsome and up-to-date now^^. trying to add some media player control, so my friends can determine, wether they want to hear you singing, fast forward, play from some position or what...it's appear, but because of the header blog, the player is cropped...didn't look pretty nice...nevermind, maybe I'll try something else, but for now, I think the old way is better, so, using the old bgsound command. some tips, if my friend ever finding the song is annoying, they can always press the stop button to make you stop singing. after that, nothing in particular....

okay my blog, see you later, I'm sleepy right now. Zzz.

farewell.

Sonntag, September 11, 2005

When a Child is Born

A ray of hope flickers in the sky
A tiny star lights up way up high
All across the land dawns a brand new morn',
This comes to pass when a child is born.

A silent wish sails the seven seas
The winds of change whisper in the trees
And the walls of doubt crumble tossed and torn,
This comes to pass when a child is born.

A rosy dawn settles all around
You got to feel you're on solid ground
For a spell or two no one seems forlorn
This come to pass when a child is born.

(Spoken)
And all of this happened
Because whe world is waiting
Waiting for one child
Black, white, yellow, no one knows
But a child that would grow up and turn tears to laughter
Hate to love, war to peace
And everyone to everyone's neighbour
Misery and suffering would be forgotten forever

It's all a dream, an illusion now.
It must come true some time soon somehow
All across the land dawns a brand new morn
This comes to pass when a child is born.

All across the land dawns a brand new morn
This comes to pass when a child is born

When a child is born

Freitag, September 09, 2005

Hmm, today is a lazy day^^

Well, today, I wake up at 8.00 O'clock, sat 4 a while, thinkin' bout something en someone^^. well, gotta get up, I hold myself up, go take some bath, some preparation, ate breakfast at about 11.00, at 3.00 go to college. hmm...arrive at about 3.20, enter the class, what the....it's so.....messy....the chair all got mess up...Oops, just remember, today we have a presentation by other groups. the dosen (duh...mentor?), sit at the rear row, looking at me, well, I just don't care^^. I find my seat in the front row, following the lecture, bla bla bla...

in short, at 4.00 (0_o) class dissmissed hmm...I gotta do my task I think, but I didn't even found my groups member...found one, didn't come here 2day (as i expected >.<)Hmm...maybe I'll do it all alone (ow, so lonely^^).

Go home, do nothing and sleep again...till about night, didn't remember the rest though^^.

After a lot of reading here and reading there...

I was drowning in what a mistery a girl can be...Just from a january 2005 to august 2005, I found a lot of precious information I won't get anywhere else...Deeper than the sea, larger than the life itself.

It makes me down, it makes me cry, it makes me think a lot...
It makes me happy, it makes me glad, it makes me think cleary now...
I found out something...I'm in love...with her...
but I found out too, that she's just simply too far too reach...

I didn't know the reason for why, I'm crying...the tears just won't stop coming down.
maybe it's because I know, I'm nothing for her...
It's okay, let the tears flowed down my eyes, let it be...
and when the rain comes down, It'll wash away all my tears...I hope

and now, I'm okay right here...
I would be alright...
I knew from the beginning, there's a prize 2 pay for loving someone...
to love someone meant you're ready between you're been love, or not...

It's hard 2 reach, harder than anything...
but no, I would cry no more...
I would stand up, trying to reach for you...
even though it'll be nothing in the end...

When I tried to reach you,
And I know somehow, you'll look back, smile 2 me just once...
and then, all my hard works are nothing...
and that, I must kept that smile 4ever...

So, even though I'm not the one who could gave you this smile...
I want you to be smiling everyday...even though it wasn't for me...
I wanna be the angel in the fairytales that you love,
raise up my hands, turn into wings, to protect you...

To kept you smile everyday...
to kept you happy everyday...
to kept you from danger...
it's what, I was here for...

Always,

K3v's

How to put a sound inside your blogs?

Well, menanggapi pertanyaan ini, gw rasa perlu sharing2 dikit tentang bagaimana supaya mp3 u slalu diputer pas buka blogs (klo ga salah jg midi disupport en wma jg). ok, step by step krg lebih kyk gini...

1st, tentunya harus punya dulu file yg mau di play, bisa midi bisa wma en yg laen2 (silahkan bereksperimen^^). Nama file, harus bersambung, tidak mengandung symbol2, en case-sensitive (huruf gede kecil pengaruh, disarankan kasih nama yg berbeda kecil gede untuk pemenggalan kata i.e. : TongHua.mp3.

2nd, mesti taroh mp3 lo di salah satu hosting (www.geocities.com) yang terbaik menurut gw, bandwithnya mayan, en klo lo punya yahoo, lo tinggal sign in aja disini. terus, pilih upload files, browse, cari file kamu yg telah kamu bikin (klo perlu bantuan soal convert menconvert, serahin aja ama gw^^.

3rd, well, setelah dialog upload success muncul, klik file manager, cari file anda tadi, eits, ada tulisan view yg imut di sebelahnya :p, jgn diklik, cukup diklik kanan, copy shortcut

4th, masuk ke dialog posting, settings, template, view blog di blogger (caranya? klik aja new post dari dashboard, ato change settings), dah itu klik tab template.

5th, tambahkan kode [bgsound src="[lagu kamu]" loop="-1"] (kurung luarnya ganti sama <>, yg dalemya tetap [and ] i.e.:[<>],dimana lagu kamu itu, di paste aja, karena td anda telah mengcopy shortcut URL lagu kamu. *Note, bgsound src ditaroh di bawah title, preview, bila berkenan, save, en kemudian publish entry kamu.



PS: var loop bisa diubah dengan ketentuan sbb :
-1 = forever, selalu diputer berulang-ulang
1 = 1x aja lagu dimaenin, setelah itu, berhenti sendiri
2 = 2x dimaeninn
n= nx dimaenin

ta-da, selamat, anda telah mempunyai lagu sebagai BGM blogs kamu (background music^^).

Oopz, can't sleep...

Ahaha, ga jd tidur wa, terlintas impian wa sejak dulu, punya webpage dengan lagu fave gw...muter2 otak, putusin tong hua jd lgnya, tp karena web, ga bole gede2 pikir wa, experiment dengan ref dulu, ambil bgn ref, diconvert ke 44.100Hz, mono, 32kbps, well, jdnya cuman sktr 170-an, not bad, cobain, ekh, krg mantap, mang sih dia berulang2, tp di ref doank, pas ngulangnya kurang mulus pula, hmm...coba2 lagi...tes 22.050Hz, mono 8kbps, full song!!! jatohnya sekitar 270 Kb, tes denger...duh, ga mantap...akhirnya ketemu d yg mayan (sorry buat audiophile^^), jatohnya sktr 470, varnya, 22.050Hz, mono, 16kbps^^. asik jg, akhirnya gw punya lagu tong hua buat nemenin tiap sahabat wa yg baca blogs wa ini, gw aja jd pgn sering2 d :p. ahaha, njoy the fairytales my friends, gotta sleep now^^. buh bye.

The most sleep of my day

Wel, 2day wa tidur paling banyak en paling panjang seumur hidup wa^^. dimulai dari kemaren malem, jam 2-an gw tidur, td pagi bangun jam 8, tidur lagi jam 8.20 gitu, bangun jam 11, sarapan, tidur jam 12.10, bangun jam 12.40, nungguin temen gw ngajakin wa maen badminton, ekh ga jadi, karena temannya ga bisa, sabtu aja ktnya>.<>
bangun2 jam 3.30 gitu, si alex naek rupanya...ngoceh2 bentar, jam 3.40 tidur lagi^^, si alex sekilas wa liat maen komp (sebenarnya gw dah nyalain komp waktu ini, nunggu si kelty, ktnya sktr jam 4 jam 5 mau ol lagi). ketiduran, bgn2 jam 4.20, hmm...this is it, gotta wake up...berdiri dengan langkah gontai, jalan ke komp, jatohh lagi ke tempat tidur nyok^^. wah...lemesss...akhirnya wa jam 5 gt segerrr jg, smsin si kelty, "alo cia, wa lg ol neh^^ (baru ol sebenarnya^^), u bs ol ga?" ternyata dia lg menuju ke rmh...ok2, I'll wait, I'll wait. hmm, tiba2 ada panggilan ke toko, suruh stok pocari 8 biji, en jg ktnya sih meja ada yg udahan, jg disuruh nanya ke temen gw yg buka TIKI, bisa ga sih kirim barang ke bangkok? so, wa stok barang, ternyata org yg laennya masih maen, simpen bola 1 set, ke TIKI, nanya si Fery, fer, gw mau ngirim barang ke luar negeri bisa ga? bla bla bla, ternyata bisa, minimal 0,5KG, klo barang harganya sekitar 261.000 0_o mahal jg yah? well, bla bla bla, intinya, nanti wa blgin mami dulu coba, chek be el, sudah selesai, itung2an, yupz, total 52.500 arigato gozaimatsu...ahaha.
in short, Oopz, dah janji mah kelty mau ol, gawat, pas buka MSN, dah ga ol dia, pikirku, jgn2 gara2 nunggu lama, dia caw. SMSin si kelty dgn gedebak gedebuk...sori, wa baru dari toko...blablabla. ternyata kknya lagi pake komp buat ol...phew, save by ronny (thx man^^). ok lho, ol ol, check2 forum (kaskus.com, videogamesindonesia.com, friendster.com), ke toko bentar, tinggal d/l ICQ^^. balik2 ada msg dari ira, halo, lagi ngapain?, bla bla bla, ngomongin begini begitu, tiba2 muncul kelty, diajak gabung ama ira, dia blg ada Ipod baru, gw pikir masa? gw lgsg buka www.ipod.com^^, ternyata ada Ipod Nano yg tuipisss bangetttt(pengen^^), bla bla bla, ngomongin berbagai macam barang, muncul sodara wa leo, diinvite kelty, ga dijawab...kt lnjt bla bla bla lho, tau2 dia msg gw, alo bro..., gw lgsg tanya, td kemana? ga terima invitean kt? lg ada ira en kelty neh, gabung? bla bla bla, tanpa sadar, kt ngoceh2, akhirnya jam 9.00 teng, kelty minta off, mau nonton "kapan bilang cinta ya? kapan2 d :p", en ira jg minta off, maklum, di aussie dah jam 12 pagi^^. tinggal wa ama leo, kt chit a chat bentar, tau2 dia brb, gw browsing2 forum ambil maen game ama ade2 wa, nungguin si beo, sambil liatin terus komp wa...jam 10:58 gitu dia muncul, ternyata abiz maen bola ama kembarnya^^. ya udah, bla bla bla, ga lama dia izin off jg, mau skul besok^^. ya udah, gw nongkrong, baca blog kelty, nemu satu lirik yg masuk banget ama gw,"while I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe, someone watching over me." gw kira kelty yg nulis liriknya...tp strukturnya kyk lagu, coba cari2 di yahoo, ternyata lagunya hillary duff, lgsg cari di diet kazaa, sip, lgsg dapet^^, lagunya ok banget^^. duh, baca2 blog org jd pgn ngeblog jg, buka d blogspot wa, tuangin semua tulisan ini...sampai bahkan gw nulis ini :p. ok lha, 2day di sekitar sini aja, tp gw dah berasa jauhhhh bangettt...thx, I proud that I have lots of family like you guys, one in jkt, one in medan, one in aussie, I feel everywhere I go, I still got family, where I belong...
Thinkin bout someone, did she thinkin' bout me too? perhaps no? It's okay, I'm no one, I'm got the right to think bout you, but didn't have the right to make you think bout me...
Well, good nite my blogs, I'm sleepy right now^^.

Donnerstag, September 08, 2005

Well, getting my 1st ICQ no.^^

222-421-917, not a prisoner number lol, it's my ICQ number, only qualified people may add me although^^. Hmm, still trying to learning bout this...

Mittwoch, September 07, 2005

A new Beginning


Well, I decided to move to blogger 2day, coz to post in fs meants, there's a bunch of people that reading your blogs pluuuusssss FS blogs is really sucks, it's got hang up usually, and got a lots of bugs>.<. the feeling that people -- that you didn't even know reading your blogs is bad, and it's killing me^^, so I think I'll setup a new blogs, and then moving in, only tell it to sum of my relative, and I'll do it with cutover methods (old stuff but good like poem and lyrics will be copy to here soon)^^. Still thinking bout someone, nah, she's definitely asleep at this time, at this late^^. Well, gotta move on to my shop I suppose, c ya my new blogs, looking 4ward 2 posting some more^^.

Where is da luv? - Black Eyed Peas

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Nigga, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' in the wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Take Me to Your Heart - MLTR

Hiding from the rain and snow,

Trying to forget, but I won't let go,

Looking at the crowded street,

Listen to my own heartbeat...

So many people, all around the world...

Tell me where do I find...someone like you girl...

Take me to your heart, take me to your soul,

Give me your hand before I'm old

Show me what love is, haven't got a clue,

Show me that wonders can be true...


They say nothing last forever, we're only here today...

Love is now or never......bring me faraway


Take me to your heart, take me to your soul

Give me your hand and hold me

Show me what love is be my guiding star

It's easy take me to your heart


Standing on a mountain high

Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky

I should go and see some friend

but they don't really comprehend


No need too much talking, without saying anything

All I need is someone, who makes me wanna sing


Take me to your heart, take me to your soul

Give me your hand before I'm old

Show me what love is, haven't got a clue

show me that wonders can be true



They say nothing last forever, we're only here today

Love is now or never, bring me faraway...



Take me to your heart, take me to your soul

give me your hand and hold me

show me what love is, be my guiden star

it's easy take me to your heart....


Take me to your heart, take me to your soul

give me your hand and hold me

show me what love is, be my guiding star

it's easy take me to your heart

練習 Lien Xi (practice) - andy lau

Han Ji
練習 (劉德華)
如果留下多一秒鐘
可以減少明天想你的痛
我會願意放下所有
交換任何一絲絲可能的佔有

幸福只剩一杯沙漏
眼睜睜看著一幕幕甜蜜
不會再有原來平凡無奇的擁有
到現在竟像是無助的奢求

我已開始練習 開始慢慢著急
著急這世界沒有你
已經和眼淚說好不哭泣
但倒數計時的愛該怎麼繼續

我天天練習 天天都會熟悉
在沒有你的城市裡
試著刪除每個兩人世界裡
那些曾經共同擁有的一切美好和回憶

愛是一萬公頃的森林
迷了路的卻是我和你
不是說好一起闖出去
怎能剩我一人回去 回去
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Roman Spelling
Lian Xi (Liu De Hua)
Ru guo liu xia duo yi miao zhong
Ke yi jian shao ming tian xiang ni de tong
Wo hui yuan yi fang xia suo you
Jiao huan ren he yi si si ke neng de zhan you

Xing fu zhi shen yi bei sha lou
Yan zheng zheng kan zhe yi mu mu tian mi
Bu hui zai you yuan lai ping fan wu qi de yong you
Dao xian zai jing xiang shi wu zhu de she qiu

Wo yi kai shi lian xi Kai shi man man zhao ji
Zhao ji zhe shi jie mei you ni
Yi jing he yan lei shuo hao bu ku qi
Dan dao shu ji shi de ai gai zen me ji xu

Wo tian tian lian xi Tian tian dou hui shou xi
Zai mei you ni de cheng shi li
Shi zhe shan chu mei ge liang ren shi jie li
Na xie ceng jing gong tong yong you de yi qie mei hao he hui yi

Ai shi yi wan gong qing de sen lin
Mi le lu de que shi wo he ni
Bu shi shuo hao yi qi chuang chu qu
Zen neng sheng wo yi ren hui qu Hui qu
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Translated
Practice (Andy Lau)
If only one more second remained
It would lessen tomorrow's pain of missing you
I'd be willing to let go of everything
In exchange for the existance of any little bit of possibliity

Only a cup of dripping sand is left of happiness
Eyes wide open, watching each act* of sweetness
I'll never have that original commonplace possession again
Until now, it seemed like an helpless extravagant demand

I've already begun to practice, begun to slowly worry
Worry that this world doesn't have you
I've already told my tears not to cry any longer
But how should a love that is ending continue?

I practice daily, becoming familiar daily
With this city that doesn't have you
Trying to delete everything in this "two person world"
All the beauty and memories we once mutually possessed

Love is a 10,000 hectare forest
But you and I have lost our way
Didn't we agree to force our way out together?
How can I be the only one left to return, to return?

Fairy tales - michael wang

forgotten how long it was,

Not hearing you, tell me your beloved story,

I've been thinking for so long,

I've started to be curious,

Isn't that I have done anything wrong?


You're crying and telling me,

inside fairy tales there's a lie to people,

I'm impossible, is your prince,

maybe you'll not understand,

from the day that you said "love me",

My skies, even the stars has shine...


I'm willing to be, inside the fairy tale, the angel that you love so much,

Open both my arms, become a wings, that'll protect you...

You must believe, believe that we could become the same as the story from the fairy tales, happiness, and joyfull is the ending...


I wanna be inside the fairy tale, the angel that you love so much,

Open both my arms, become a wings, that'll protect you...

You must believe, believe that we could become the same as the story from the fairy tales, happiness, and joyfull is the ending...


I'll be inside the fairytale, the angel that you love so much,

Open both my arms, become a wings, that'll protect you...

You must believe, believe that we could become the same as the story from the fairy tales, happiness, and joyfull is the ending...


keep on writing, our own ending...

I'm Gonna Be Around -- MLTR

I'm Gonna Be Around
(Jascha Richter/ Oli Poulsen/ Ashley Mulford)

It's been so long since we took the time
to share words from deep inside us
We're in our own world spinning our wheels
but you know how I feel

Well since the first time I took your hand
my love for you has just been growing
You always seem to understand
You know how I am

Chorus:
I'm gonna love you til the end
I'm gonna be your very true friend
I wanna share your ups and downs
I'm gonna be around

When you're alone and I'm away
don't be sad don't be afraid
I'm gonna turn my thoughts to you
like I always do

Chorus:
I'm gonna love you til the end
I'm gonna be your very true friend...

Catch you when you fall
Hold you when you're down
Sharing every moment
I wanna show you all I do
I believe I've found a miracle in you

Chorus:
I'm gonna love you til the end
I'm gonna be your very true friend...

The mouse love tammy

I'm hearing your voice, there's something felt special,

Makes me, won't stop thinking, won't dare to forget you,

I remember there's someone, always live inside my heart,

I'm afraid, just like this I could, think of you...


*Bridge :

If there's someday, love's wishes could be true,

I'll try harder, treat you better, won't change forever,

Don't care how far the road it's, must make the wishes come true,

I'll slowly, by your side said to you, said to you.....

*Ref:

I love you, always love you, just like the mouse love Tammy...

don't care how much winds and rains, I'll always accompany you,

I think of you, always think of you, don't care how much bitter there's,

Just when I could make you happy, I won't hesitate doing everything,

just like this loving you...


I remember there's someone, always got inside my heart,

I'm afraid, just like this I could, think of you...


*Bridge :

*Ref:

The life

Could everything come back to me,
Could I gain what I already lose?
I kept searching all over the place,
Still can't find everything I'm searching for...

What am I searching for?
I didn't even realize,
I kept searching for everywhere,
Searching for something I didn't even know what...

Whatever could happen,
When I just let go all the thing I had now,
To find something I didn't even knew at all,
But somehow I just believe...

People out there saying I'm crazy,
People out there saying that I'm insane,
Coz I believe they didn't believe what I had believe,
Even though through the end...
I still can't find what am I searching for...

I somehow enjoy my loneliness,
It just suddenly happen,
didn't know why, didn't know how,
Just like the world that spinning around
till someday I finally realize,

It's just a natural instinct that came with me to this world,
This never quench feeling,
This curious thing,
I finally came into a conclusion,
It's just so very 'humanly'

In the end,
I just lost everything,
That ever belong to me,
I had been so stupid all along
To let you go is the most dumb thing I ever do, always...

There was once a true love in my life,
But I just ignore it,
When I realize that, it's too late,

But if there's a chance to see her again,
I'll say this three magic words,
I Love You,

And if there's a limit to my love,
I hope it's...
4ever....

You Took My Heart Away - MLTR

Staring at the moon so blue

Turning all my thoughts to you

I was without hopes or dreams I tried to dull an inner scream

but you saw me through


Walking on a path of air

See your faces everywhere

As you melt this heart of stone you take my hand to guide me home

and now I'm in love


[Chorus:] You took my heart away

when my whole world was gray

You gave me everything and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

and you sleep by my side

you become the meaning of my life


Living in a world so cold

you are there to warm my soul

You came to mend a broken heart You gave my life a brand new start

and now I'm in love


[Chorus:] You took...


Holding your hand

I won't fear tomorrow

Here were we stand we'll never be alone

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Lost in Confusion...

I'm losing inspiration right now,
don't have the right one who could makes me
struggle more,
can't find it, can't consentrate, can't try harder,
coz I'll fall everytimes,

feeling so numb,
feeling so crazy,
feeling so lonely,
and even a million friends doesn't cure my
loneliness,

I'm ill, so sicks, can't find the point of returning,
can't find my next destination, stuck in the middle,
no where I can go, just like moving in the dark,

need you, don't need you,
need you, don't need you,
want you, don't want you,
want you, don't want you,
love you, don't love you,
love you, don't love you,

this thinking consuming me slowly,
confusing, controlling, I can't seems...
2 find myself again, my wall is closing in,
I find myself before, so insecure......

Against my will, I stand beside my own reflection
can't move, can't move, can't move, can't move
i'll breakkkkk.......I'll breakkkkk....................

I'll break down all of this numbness, craze,
loneliness,
I'll crawl, I'll struggle, I'll fight...for a better 2morrow,
but still, this wound they wouldn't heal...
fear is how I fall, confusing what is
reallllllllllllll.............

Consuming.....confusingggg what is
realllllllllll...............

Inspired by crawling - LP

K3v's

Secret...

1st time, I saw you
feel so close, feel so warm
2nd time, I knew you
wondering how or why you are...

3rd time, think of you
You're so fragile, that I didn't even dare to touch...
4th time, still thinking of you
You're slidin' away, leaving me here behind...

5th time, can't get you out of my mind
you're here inside my mind...
6th time, feel relieved
you found your perfect match, even though it's isn't
me

7th time, just let me be your angel
protect you when you hurt
catch you when you fall
cheer you when you down

I wanna be the angel in the fairy tales that you
adore...
Lay down my hand, be a wings to protect you...
you must believe, believe that we could be the
same as the fairytales...
happiness and joyfull is the end...

Let me be your angel
let me be your protector
let me be your admirer
let me be the one...

My 1st love...

Once upon a time...^^

There's a girl who was asking a guy, "guy, is there's someone whom you love within our classmates?".

Guy was thinking...so hard actually...(actually, "I'm in love with you" is what in guy mind). but, he didn't say so, he just say..."Perhaps, there's someone...". after that, everything went normally, and as time goes by...

Girl has move 2 another school, guy 2, has move 2 another school...

Till, about 4-5 years later...guy went to a church 2 celebrate christmas, it's was so crowded. he was praying, singing and then...suddenly, he saw a face that looks familiar down the stage (guy was in 4th floor, stage in 3rd floor) it was girl, she was more prettier than before, she looks cheerful, energic and full of power. she play in somekind of christmast's parody. guy was happy 2 see her again, he remembered the day back then...he felt stupid remembering it...after the liturgy...guy try to reach girl, but it's to crowded back then, when guy reach the 1st floor, it's people everywhere, but he can't find girl...he wait and wait, till no one there, but she just simply disappear...guy didn't have the chance 2 met the girl again...

But in his heart, guy smile, "I was so happy, that I ever love a girl that's so nice like that...

Just let me be your secret admirer, just let me dream of you all night long, I'll prefer to let you go, so you can sing, so you can fly, so everyone will be happy, to share your power, the power of love...

I was proud, that I didn't say I love you that day, so that, you could be as cherish as today...


*PS* butterfly effect : Every event in the past, will be the key 2 reach today, every change in the past, will change today, tommorrow and the day after tommorrow...


guy grew stronger now, guy learnt how 2 appreciate a love now...Never hesitate 2 say "I love you", when you got someone you love in your mind. Coz, when it's too late, it's just too late...Guy just hoping, girl will be always happy forever...


Always,


K3v's

Maria and Draco, Scene 1

Oh my hero,
so far away now.
Will I ever see your smile?

Love goes away,
like night into day.
It's just a fading dream...

I'm the darkness,
You're the stars.
Our love is brighter than the sun.

For eternity,
for me there can be,
only you, my choosen one...

Must I forget you?
Our solemn promise?
will Autumn take the place of spring?

What shall I do?
I'm lost without you.
Speak to me once more!

We must part now,
my life goes on.
But my heart won't give you up.

Ere I walk away,
let me hear you say.
I meant as much to you...

So gently,
you touched my heart.
I will be forever yours.

Come what may,
I won't age a day.
I'll wait for you, always...